Boys II

So I started my completely ignoring the can't keep his hands to himself man and also mentioned this to others around me, and it seems to be working just fine, in fact he doesn't talk to me either and acts slightly pissed off but I really am so much more comfortable now, which is good because I get to relax and just be myself more.

I realized today that due to, lets call it... "work" related situation I have gained a new family, I guess it was happening gradually but after yesterday, it hit me, these relationships that I am building are becoming real, I mean they are starting to mean more to me than simply co-workers, (don't get me wrong and think all melodramatically like they are perfect or I would trust my life to them or anything but still). I am starting to feel so comfortable I almost forgot that there was I time when it really wasn't that easy.
In any case I've gained some brothers, F who is definitely an older brother of the group, he doesn't get all dramatic, he just lets it blow over and keeps the work happening, he always says things in a tactful manner and trys to say the right thing at the right time. It is nice to have him around.
U is a dreamer, at first I was like, this dude is totally nuts, and in some respects I am sure he still is, but a little crazy is never that bad. He's the leader tryin' to make the mix work. He's like a younger older brother, also cool.

I could continue down this path of describing everyone but I won't, in any case, as far as boys go I fit in just fine with the "work" boys which is nice.

Second, I asked I boy out, yes a cute and nice one, when I play it back in my mind I am still proud even though I was soooo not smooth, in any case, we went out and it went okay although it was a little awkward at times, but I figure that is to be expected. So I haven't called him since because I figure that he should call me if he wants to continue, I mean how else will I know right? I thought I was gonna give it a week, but it has been 5 days and I think I am over it. I mean not that I wasn't a little girlygirl about it in the middle, but now I am just okay with it either way if nothing happens that is okay and if something does that is okay too....whoooo dudes...whoooo I think this is maturity coming on!!!! YES, man I am so cool, (wait I hope nobody heard that) haha

Boys

Things I hate about boys...

I hate that some of the good ones actaully imply that rules put in place to avoid sexual or other harassment are crazy, overkill whatever, fuck you obviously have not been sexually harrassed and just because you wouldn't do it doesn't mean other guys don't and there are many times in a girls life where there is little to be done if a guy puts his hands places they shouldn't be or says things he shouldn't say, and by the way to all you losers out there, this is NOT flirting and it does not turn us on or make us like you more, I promise!!!!

All you ranters next time think because you are at risk of saying something like that in fornt of a girl/boy who is dealing with that shit, all those rules doesn't mean there are easy solutions, no offence people but these situations can be pretty difficult to figure out.

Second thing I hate about boys, being all touchy feely without permission or consideration for the other person, dude it is just rude and embressing, especially if I hint that I don't like it,
two such examples come to mind, for the first all I can say is that it really sucks to have to deal with that shit, I kinda wish that I could make some strong gay man treat this dude the way he thinks it is okay to treat women, asshole. That would be the best thing ever but instead I will completely stop trying to be polite about it and simply have nothing to do with him and tell people around me why I choose to do so.

The second is actually a friend. We both know we are just friends yet he insists on doing things like surprising me by randomly wrapping his arms around me at a croweded book store as if it is cute or funny or something and putting his arm around my shoulder as if to send the message that we are together or something, I mean if you had a girlfriend would you be cool with other guys being all touchy feely with her. It is not like I don't have other male friends that I actaully get/give hugs to but they are never really annoying about it.

I really don't think I should have to pretend to have a boyfriend or actually have one in order for touchy feely boys to keep their hands off of me. No offence neanderthals but womens' bodys are their own property not their boyfriends. Which leads me to the third annoying male...

The third kind of male I hate is the alpha male. The kind that walks around like he is the stud and all the girls secretly want him, the self obsession is just too annoying. Addtionally winning a gilrs affections is not like winning a trophy. But what buggs me most about this type of male is that I always get the feeling that they have to believe that women are weak and need them or something.... that is messed up!!!! DUDE if a girl digs you it ain't cause she's not strong enough to take care of herself. The reason I find this insulting is because even if a guy is helping me with something, it doesn't mean that I haven't had to do difficult things for myself in the past. And no offence to such believers but have you ever looked around, there are plenty of strong women everywhere. Also strength can be defined in different ways. Physical strength is not the only strength there is, here is a morbid example to explain, you can kill a person by clubbing them on the head or by poisoning them, they both work.

Hibernating

Oh my God!! I think that is it, I am done. I am full, I who usually talks without stopping for breath, well I mean none of my friends would say that I am not talkative, that is for sure.
But honestly, I find myself at a loss for words lately, however I should mention that this is accompanied by random urges to talk about what I have been up to. For example, my little brother asked me a random question and I wrote him this big long reply and realized that I have been doing a lot of stuff lately and should therefore have no trouble talking but I didn't even remember the sequence of events that is my life seriously folks, it is weird, like my brain is hibernating.

I am sure that if I started talking stuff would come out of me but I have no clue what that would be, I think it would probably be randomness, which is why I think I am referaining from saying things.

So I am wondering, does anyone else ever feel like that?