I think I figured out the perfect response for the question "so, know that your done school what are you doing?"
I am looking for something to look forward too. That's right that is exactly what I am doing,.... although the problem with that is that you gotta go looking for....inspiration....oppertunity...the nexus of the two maybe, anyway, I am not sure that this is an appropriate answer....what I have been saying is: well I just graduated, I am home for awhile, I will start looking for a real job, yes it is nice to take a break blah blah blah blah....
Thing is, it feels like at this point in my life, any decision I make will have real and lasting consequences for who I become, I am no good under pressure, damn it...I guess I will do what I always do which is just pretend it isn't that important and than just see what happens....