I Fucked Up Royally

Anyone ever feel like they set the wheels into montion for this plan and then wish someone would have just shook them out, back so they could see the whole thing, the whole picture instead of intensly staring at the one spec in front of them, if i only get through this then it will be over and start something else, we have to follow through right...anyone??
Problem is sometimes hanging in there is good but maybe hanging on to things isn't?
How exactly are we to know what we are hagning onto, the things that matter or the material entities within which they come to be tangible in our world?

Man it is big mistake to force yourself to do things when what you really need is a second to catch your breath,
I have royally fucked up and now I will pay the price....whatever maybe I wouldn't have liked the places those bridges would have taken me anyway.

I think I lost faith in my ability and didn't address it, just figured things around me would start getting sunny again and then I would remember how able I was or something, or is it that I always feel like I don't know what the hell I am doing and it is all crap until it isn't.....
bluh.....non coherence that is right, sometimes I think there is logic in it.... altough non coherence usually means no one is going to understand the waze length you are trying to articulate.....