The Vortex that is Home
WHOOO MAN...I feel like I have travelled back into another world. Is it just me or does everyone forget about the detailed worlds they are a part of? I mean my life at school is this whole world and then when I get home I realize that there is this whole other world that I am a part of too, I seem to forget all its intricacies while I am away. I do things in one place that I do not do in the other. Some may seem in contridict each other but I am not sure if that makes me a hypocite or just a real person. I mean as if anyone is part of only one community.
It is odd to think that I can sit so comfortably in a gathering of Pakistani people joking around about the type of person that so and so would marry where I obviously will not bring up the fact that the assumption that all people will marry people of the opposite gender, of the same race, religon etc. is just an assumption. While at the same time perfactly enjoy having friends and being part of a group of friends that would probably get annoyed by this type of conversation. What can I say there is something comforting in both.
In a seperate yet related note, last night I took the car out at around 11:30pm with my brothers and my cousin inside and we went for a drive and didn't come home until 1:00am, apperently such activity is okay, go figure. I used to think I would have to pick one part of me over the other but maybe that isn't the case. That for sure is way cool. There are all these boxes that people (and indeed we ourselves) put ourselves in and while these boxes can be helpful I refuse to believe that I have to confine myself to one.
A friend of mine once said "she was collecting tennis balls" well I am collecting boxes....
It is odd to think that I can sit so comfortably in a gathering of Pakistani people joking around about the type of person that so and so would marry where I obviously will not bring up the fact that the assumption that all people will marry people of the opposite gender, of the same race, religon etc. is just an assumption. While at the same time perfactly enjoy having friends and being part of a group of friends that would probably get annoyed by this type of conversation. What can I say there is something comforting in both.
In a seperate yet related note, last night I took the car out at around 11:30pm with my brothers and my cousin inside and we went for a drive and didn't come home until 1:00am, apperently such activity is okay, go figure. I used to think I would have to pick one part of me over the other but maybe that isn't the case. That for sure is way cool. There are all these boxes that people (and indeed we ourselves) put ourselves in and while these boxes can be helpful I refuse to believe that I have to confine myself to one.
A friend of mine once said "she was collecting tennis balls" well I am collecting boxes....
posted by girlyLarki at 10:00 AM
5 Comments:
I agree with you, people will act differently and have different expectations in different settings... unless you're really one-dimensional. And neither you, I, or any of our mutual friends are like that anyway. I dont like putting myself in a box either, cuz once you do, then you can suffocate yourself personally from being truly expressive, and plus people start to expect things from you and you feel you have to hide other parts of your personality because of it.
Peace,
-Z
finally! a new entry! i know what you mean about the two worlds thing. i dont think it is hypocrisy to do one thing u wouldn't in another. ppl in one world cant handle some of what you do in your other world. so it's their fault! and sometimes there are times when you can do stuff in both worlds :) you are a complex and beautiful person :)
heh i think us brown canadians all know what you mean about the different worlds. the scary thing is when the two worlds start to meld into one and you are forced to say something
It's not hypocracy, it's caution.
hey guys, i figured you would have some idea of how the two worlds thing goes.
Z I totally feel what your saying and I am glad you commented because it made me realize what was different about what I feel now than I have in the past... I think before I was hesitent to put myself in any box but now I don't mind, in fact I want to find lots of boxes to put myself in...as long as I don't have to be in only one...also I think that I will be less likely to feel the need to correct people if they assume things about me because they think I fit in one box or another I mean really that says more about them than it does me.(Really, what I am refering to here is what people assume about me because I am south asian and do fit into that sterotype in part, I mean what is wrong with that anyway)Of course this can be generalized to other boxes for sure.
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