Arugh

STOP THE WORLD I want to get off. Man I thought I could do this whole multitasking thing but I am finding that I just don't care to for some reason. Maybe it is the heat or the prospect of busing back and forth, while studying and trying to find work that I get paid more than I do currently for my time but this whole thing seems a little nuts to me. I keep thinking okay how much can I push myself to get done before it is enough to make me collapse or not want to do any of it.
And than I get pissed off at myself for being worried about that stuff. I really don't have to do it all. Unfortunately there are different good reasons to do all of the many things I seem to want to fit into this frame that we can call my life.
Additionally, I am surrounded by cool people who seem to enjoy diversity and seem to fit a number of must dos and want to dos into their schedules. It's the making of schedules that I find to be a stressful thing I think, all the choices, this is what is currectly driving me insane....
at least I think that is what it is....